My pressure was good and my weight was fine. The nurse practitioner was very busy with both her patients and the doctor's patients, since he was out! As a result, although my appointment was for 10:15 a.m., I didn't get called in to see the nurse practitioner until after 11:30 a.m. And even then, I had to wait for another 15 minutes or so before she came into the examining room to see me.
She examined me and she could feel it too. A palpable nodule is what she called it. She checked the cyst I had on the stomach, as well. She said the nodule on the breast could be a stitch (it is just above the incision, but I doubt it is a stitch because the surgeon used a type of glue and not stitches; maybe some scar tissue, though), or a cyst; beyond that, she wouldn't say without further tests. She didn't dismiss it out of hand, however, as I haven't had a follow-up mammogram after the treatment, yet. She then called the oncologist to consult with him and that she was going to put in a request for an ultrasound, as a mammogram couldn't be done due to the inflammation. He agreed with her.
So, she has put in the request and now we wait for insurance to approve and schedule. She also ordered additional blood work and they will check for cancer markers (the last blood test which I did in April said the cancer markers were good). I have a follow-up appointment with her in July, but if results come in before that which warrant a visit sooner, someone will call from the clinic to schedule an earlier appointment. She also wanted me to call the radiation oncologist and tell him what happened, so I called and spoke to the nurse and updated her.
I didn't leave the clinic until 12:30 p.m. and then, I went to the office. Today, someone had brought in mochi ice cream, which are Japanese rice cakes filled with ice cream! Again, no particular reason for a treat - other than it being a Monday!
After work, I put gas ($22.82) to the car and did a little bit of grocery shopping. Milk ($1.99 for 1/2 gal.), flavored coffee creamer ($1.99), strawberries (2 lbs. @ $.88/lb), cold cuts ($2.50) for sandwiches, and some cans of juice drinks (8 @ $.25 + deposit). My total came to $10.64.
|May 22 Groceries|
|May 22 Grocery Receipt|
I kept wanting a treat when I was at the grocery store - I was tempted by the apple pies ($2.99), the ice cream ($3.49), ready made flan (small single serve cups for $.99), cook & serve chocolate pudding mixes ($1.00; I don't like the instant mixes), even frozen cheesecake ($5.99) although the last time I had frozen cheesecake, I didn't like it. Sigh. I know I am an emotional eater and the treats I wanted were to make me feel better, but I didn't buy any. I treated myself to one of the cans of juice drinks, though, after I came home.
Came home and took the trash cans to the curb, called a cousin and spoke with an aunt who called. Another cousin texted me and said she's saying a special prayer for me to Our Lady of Lourdes as she has great faith in Her.
So now, we wait for the ultrasound to find out what is going on. I am telling myself not to anticipate and worry until we get the ultrasound results. Easier said than done, of course. I am already second guessing what we've done. Maybe the lumpectomy wasn't enough? Maybe I should have had a mastectomy? The oncologist had told me, when I first went to see him and he outlined the recommended treatments, that if the cancer returned, they automatically consider it as stage 4. I am hoping and praying that it is something benign and not a return of the cancer.
Today, I am grateful for:
- Being able to see the nurse practitioner
- Knowing the necessary diagnostic tests will be done
- Having medical insurance
- The staff at the clinic who always inquire after my daughter
- Prayers of family and friends on my behalf
Tuesday's To Do List:
- Go to the office
- Bring the trash cans in
- Do the dishes
- Cook the vegetables
How was your Monday? Did you have a good day?